Another step in the right direction
Monday, Sept. 24, 2007 - 1:38 p.m.

I have never been able to stand up to men. I don't know why. I'm not even going to go into the psychology of it, or my childhood or whatever. For whatever reason, I can't do it. Never have been able to. Or women either, for that matter.
Saturday, I once again, stepped out of the realm of the world I know. I know I never really stood up for my daughters the way I should have. I promised myself I would not let little E down like that.
It was a small move in perspective. But HUGE for me.
Big E has always let E play video games. Every other weekend for as long as he has been able to play games. One weekend he didn't allow him to play all weekend. But made little E sit and watch while he played. Little E didn't understand why he wasn't allowed to play, therefore didn't want to go to his dads. I asked him if he wanted me to ask his dad why he wasn't allowed to play. He said yes. I was fretting. I didn't know if I could do it. I have never confronted someone with something like that. But I knew I had to do it. I had to stand up for little E. So, I did. It was hard, but I did it. And I feel better for it, somewhat. Big E said it was because he had a "bad attitude". Whatever, the poor boy probably doesn't even know what he did wrong. And a whole weekend (out of every other weekend) of punishment for probably what was a minor infraction, while you watch your dad play all the games you love was probably pure torture. I had to stand up for him. I told big E that little E just wanted to know what he had done wrong. So, I just turned to little E and told him to be a good listener and have a good attitude and he could play games.

Well, he came home yesterday and told me he was able to play games this weekend. I was pleased that I was finally able to stand up for someone.

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