questions that will forever go unanswered
Monday, Apr. 21, 2008 - 9:14 p.m.

Selfishly, the questions begin.
I come from a family of six kids. We have all lost two parents. Five out of six of us have been divorced, so we have lost husbands or wives. We have seen heart ache. One of us lost a baby at birth. One has lived in Germany since 1977, so he has not been right there in the middle of the action for a long time. Not that any of us really have until the last ten years or so.
But none of them, not ONE of them had an addict for a child. Not ONE of them lost their child to depression and addiction.
Why me? Selfishly I ask, WHY ME!!!!?????
I know these are questions that will never be answered. I am smart enough to know that I shouldn't even start asking these questions. But, I ask. I want to know.
It's been four weeks to the day now. It seems to be getting harder for some reason.
God, I miss her.

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